I had a bad day...

Yesterday was not a very good day.. well the last couple of days in general haven't been good. I feel SO down about myself lately that just about every shower I take I look forward to so I can go cry and not have anyone bother me.. it's horrible. Last night... I wanted company while I was showering so I asked Jason to sit with me... instead of being nice and just sitting with me and chatting... he decided it would be funny to first pee on me while I'm showering and then second goes get a freezing cold glass of water and pour it on me.... I mean yea.. on a different day I would have just laughed and figured a way to retaliate.. but not last night.. I Just wanted to snuggle... have my ego stroked a little and go to bed! And then today... I call him at work to say Hey and what-not.. and he tells me he wrote a song and told me his inspiration was Natasha... who is one of my oldest best friends and who he also "thinks" he fooled around with a long time ago... which okay.. I sort of laughed... and then I asked (dumb me.. I sort of set myself up for disapointment here) if he ever wrote a song and I was the inspiration.. and what does he say... NO!! Well gee thanks hunny... I just want to go home and go to bed!