I just don't know what to do with myself....

Seriously... I really don't... I sit here some days and just think I am the LUCKIEST woman alive... and can't think of a single thing he does that makes me unhappy... I mean c'mon... who wouldn't love Tickle Monster?? Let's see... sweet kisses, hard lovin, FANTASTIC bacon, funny songs, Car Concerts, Monsters for everything, I could go on and on and on... and then some days I can only think of the bad things... womanizer, EXTREME flirt (beyond the harmless flirting), tries to have sex pretty much with anything with a vagina, never gives appreciation to me, doesn't do what he promises, lies and as far as I am concerned... cheat(ed/s). Sooooo.... what do I do?? Ignor the bad and remember the good... it's easier to say then do... you know? Try and talk to him about it... what is there to say... nothing!... Stay angry and grumpy like I do now and destroy my relationship even more! Oyyy... I just don't know what to do... seriously.. I'm so tired of being unhappy... but I am SO sick of being used! Anywho... I still know I love him to death and I want nothing more then to one day finally marry him...

Lol... I'm a skytzo... reading my last E-mail and then this one... you would think I was crazy.. but whatever! :)

She Died....

Yea... she died... right up and died... Shirley, my laptop! I almost cried....! I am looking into rent to owning a lap top... I found one I really really like and it's only $45 a month with the first month free AND a built in web-cam! Rockin right?? Plus I'll own it in 12 months.. I'm only paying $550 or something, I priced the computer if I just went and bought it.. I would pay $700!! I think that's pretty cool! Sooo... what to talk about... I'm sitting here at Work wondering if it will ever get cold before Christmas! Jason wore shorts the other day and it was honestly hot in the morning! Kind of crazy right??? Here are my End of December Plans:
Dec 19-Nana's Birthday
Dec 23-Celebrate with his mom and sister
Dec 24-Celebrate with my mom and going to Midnight Mass with Mommy Dearest
Dec 25-Nothing.. lol.. I'm off and Jason is working.. go figure! Maybe he and I will go out to dinner that night or something?

Okie Dokies... those are my plans... and then New Years Eve... Nothing.. lol.. Jason works New Years Day.. go figure!! It's kind of crazy! Anywho... I'm hoping to get out of work soon... I have some serious business to attend... So keep rockin in the free world! :)

Dunkin Donuts yum yum

I'm sitting here seriously about to fall asleep! My eyelids are SO heavy I have the yawns like crazy and we're SO dead at work it is killing me! I feel like I didn't sleep at all last night but trust me.. I was sawing logs all night.. lol! So what's the deal??

Anywho.. hmm.. what's going on with me.. just got done eating my Dunkin Donuts breakfast.. bagel, hash browns and coffee... just got done cutting out a whole TWO coupons from the paper... seriously.. I only cut out two!! That's insane.. they need to get some good ones in there because I am about to stop buying it! I attended a funeral yesterdy morning and family chirstmas party last night... can you see the irony??

Well got a call finally.. and it ends up being a cheap ass!! He wants to come from Pitsburg to Fort Lauderdale... for 7 nights (which is 8 days) and the total (which DOES include air AND hotel) came to roughly $1,000 and he said he could get it for only $300! I said good luck buddy!! lol

Oyy... I wish this job was more exciting... when we were in training it sounded SOO cool.. and well it's turning out to be pretty dull! But okiedokies... off to stare into space waiting for the day to end!

No Birthday sex.. no 21 spankings..

Kind of a let down.. I still haven't been drunk!!! But I can say I caught a healthy buzz the other night at Dinner!! :O)

Birthday Time!

Holy Shamolies my 21st Birthday is tomorrow!! Can you believe it.. I can't!! The funny thing... I'm going to dinner with my grandparents.. so that means my very first legal drink out in public will be with my grandparents!! Funny huh?? My main squeeze will be taking me out the day after, Friday! I am so excited.. I didn't think it was going to be a big deal.. but omigoodness I am so excited!! My parents are in Tenn.. that's kind of strange, it's my first time not celebrating my B-day with my mom... kind of makes me sad!!

Anywho... a little about me.. sitting on the couch watching Dawn of the Dead (2004 Zack Snyder) with Ivey at my feet a naked Jason in the chair and who knows where Angel is! Counting down the minutes until my Birthday, only 60 minutes! Hmm... our relationship is getting a little better.. I'm not sure how or what.. but I think it's due to the fact that one morning I woke up and decided I just don't care anymore! I feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted off my back.. strange huh?

Alrighty then... Off to finish the movie and give Jason quizes on good 'ole Zombie movies!

Ciao