Strange Times

Well with everything going on in my life you would think I would be jumping for joy.. beaming with energy.. a smile from ear to ear.. but I have some bad news... I just can't seem to be happy?

Well great news number one.. I'm moving!! I'm finally moving into a place I can call my own that I will own... everything.. it's great!! It's 3 bedroom 2 bathrooms... huge family room.. big kitchen.. bla bla bla... I love the place... so I should be super happy about that...

Great news number two.. I have a new job!! I am getting paid W A Y better then what I was making and it's an awesome job with amazing benefits... and everything inbetween... so I should have a sigh of relief..

Other good news... well that's a secret I cannot share with you!!

Well those are some pretty awesome things that I am so sad about.. well I am not sad about those things.. but I am just sad in general... perhaps I am starting to let things get to me... I have been told some pretty harsh things lateley and I have been just brushing it off.. but now it's starting to hurt pretty badly... I have been ignoring my own feelings about everything going on with the whole "death in the family" thing.. and well... now I am thinking I don't like it so much... I have gained like a zillion pounds it feels like... I don't like the clothes I have.. .I owe people sooooooooo much monies... I owe the hospital so much monies.. My insurance is really blej.. and everything else... I just want to crawl into a ball and cry.. :(

Well yea.. that's about all going on for me now.. I'm not in a very happy mood right now anyways... soooo.. I'll blogg again another day.. maybe this weekend after my first week of work.. I'll probably have a couple things to say about that!

Oh yea... by the way... one of my best friends... he just got out of the hospital so I am stressing about him... something is wrong with is heart or muscle (yes I know a heart is a muscle but the pec) something or another!! That's pretty crazy...

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Jason has been off the rocker lately... I don't know what to do with him anymore.. I want to make him happy and smile and laugh again.. but I don't... and it makes me even sadder!!!!

Well okay... it's bed time!!